I'm Still Me♥I AM

Random words-in-motion

~as I gather strength, courage & inspiration tonight from the musical genius that is Josh Groban~

 So many times I don't even recognize the face staring back at me...where did that fun, youthful, bright spirit go?  *(I know she's still in there....) but it seems 

She's been replaced for so many years by someone I don't know...someone in pain, someone who had to listen to doctors that couldn't give any answers to why her body betrayed her, and someone who has had to continue making new start after new start, only to have steady ground ripped out beneath her again. None of it made nor makes any sense, but somehow I feel it has all happened for a reason, a reason that is still evolving...as is my healing.  Like a Phoenix rising out of the ashes, I am here for a reason and a purpose, and ~I am inching closer to it every day.~

Perhaps this is all bringing me back to myself.  Through all the confusion and battles within my body, mind heart and spirit....

I started listening to myself

again.

I say~

Self, I know you're still here

I SEE YOU. 

I KNOW you can shine, and share and love and grow and BE 

that person that lives within you.

And she says to me, thank you, but I'm frightened that I've lost too much time. *(She doesn't really hear me just yet.) She worries...I can't make that difference I want to make...You see, I want(ed) to 

change the world.

And then, she rises again, she sees herself clearly in the mirror for but a brief moment in time. 

And it changes everything.

 

Understanding, illumination and inspiration 

flashes in small bursts 

knowing that ~The I that I AM~ is still inside

that the the beginning is near....

right on the brink of brilliance and beauty

and knowledge and understanding

yet still surrounded by shadows and darkness feeling my

light dimmed, but knowing that the fire and passion is still 

inside.  

Heart and soul ignites....she sings and dances and LOVES. (She's still here and still me.)

Tonight, know that YOU are still YOU...and I'll remind ME that I'm still ME! 

With a bright shining light somewhere inside, I see YOU too! xo JessicaLove♥